What Might I Gain?
Tormenting, Relentless, Racking, Pain
What good is it for? I have nothing to gain
It strips away my ability, to be productive in life
My desires as a mother, and the duties of a wife
The tears pour out uncontrollably
My lips sip the soothing wine
The disappointment is overwhelming
What I had dreamed of is no longer mine
Life progresses forward, dancing right on by
I long to be a part, instead all I can do is cry
My husband must now work twice as hard
To take care of his children and wife
The tensions surmount to incredible heights
The peace we once shared now turned to strife
My children cry” mommy, mommy
Won’t you please come out and play"
No I must reluctantly offer
Because of the pain I must lay
I fear my heart is breaking
I am certain it is crushing in two
How much more can I endure
What am I suppose to do?
My heart cry’s desperately to GOD
My speech is mute as I try to Pray
I don’t want to continue living like this
No..not one more day!
But louder than my anguish
Surfaces a gentle yet powerful voice
Listening intently I hear
“You Can Do This; You don’t have a choice"
I become alert that he loves me
And it is clear that I am to live
Even though I’ve lost everything
Feeling empty, with nothing to give
So with that I change my attitude
About this incredible pain
And instead begin to question
What might I learn from this?
What Might I Gain? |