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What Might I Gain?

Tormenting, Relentless, Racking, Pain
What good is it for? I have nothing to gain

 It strips away my ability, to be productive in life
My desires as a mother, and the duties of a wife

The tears pour out uncontrollably
My lips sip the soothing wine
The disappointment is overwhelming
What I had dreamed of is no longer mine

Life progresses forward, dancing right on by
 I long to be a part, instead all I can do is cry

My husband must now work twice as hard
To take care of his children and wife
 The tensions surmount to incredible heights
The peace we once shared now turned to strife

My children cry” mommy, mommy
Won’t you please come out and play"
No I must reluctantly offer
Because of the pain I must lay

 I fear my heart is breaking
I am certain it is crushing in two
How much more can I endure
What am I suppose to do?

My heart cry’s desperately to GOD
My speech is mute as I try to Pray
I don’t want to continue living like this
No..not one more day!

But louder than my anguish
Surfaces a gentle yet powerful voice

Listening intently I hear
 “You Can Do This; You don’t have a choice"

I become alert that he loves me
And it is clear that I am to live
Even though I’ve lost everything
Feeling empty, with nothing to give

So with that I change my attitude
About this incredible pain
And instead begin to question
What might I learn from this?
What Might I Gain?

 

 

Laura Beth Young©

This is the very first poem I wrote around 10 years ago. Though I felt worthless, God saw value in me, and began changing my heart. I had no comprehension of what I could possibly gain from such loss, but over a period of many years I began to understand.

Through my trials I have gained a stronger walk with the Lord, and have a greater understanding of His infinite love for all people. I have gained the ability to reach out to others who are hurting and going through difficulties. I’ve experienced the blessing of receiving unconditional love through my husband, who has stood by my side. I have gained the incredible” gift” of writing, and can appreciate fully the simple pleasures of life. All of which have stirred in me the desire to live a life filled with purpose passion and greatness!

“What gain is there in my destruction, in my going down into the pit?” Psalm 30:9

More Poetry and Prose:
What Might I Gain

My Cup Runneth Over
Descending into the Deep End of Despair… Resurfacing for a Fresh Breath of Renewed Hope
Alone But Not Forgotten
Love Is A Choice
An Awesome Autumn Day

 

 

Contact Laura at:
laurabeth@cheerfulhearts.org

(301) 476 -0389 / (888) 205-7796 (toll free)